Random thoughts on being back to work

I've been back to work for 3 weeks now and it's been a pretty smooth transition so far. Olivia and I went back to Three Little Birds for the "Working Mamas support group" and from listening to other moms' experiences, I feel lucky we got the hang of it so quickly. When I start at 9 Vince will take Olivia to my mom at 7:30 on his way to work while I get ready, then I'll go to my mom's and feed her breakfast before going to work. Then I'll pick her up after I get off at 4. When I start at 2 Olivia and I will sleep in, hang out and I'll bring her to mom's on my way to work. Then she and Vince will pick me up at walk home with me at 9.
 So here's a smattering of random things that have crossed my mind since I've started working:

• My mom is the best. Vince and I are seriously so lucky to have my mom watch Olivia. Childcare is expensive,  so having someone watch the baby whom I truly trust is an unbelievable blessing. 
• My fear that Olivia would forget me while I'm at work was unfounded.  She remembers me (yay my daughter does not have the memory of a goldfish) and that huge smile she gives me when I see her after work makes all of the late-night bottle washing and laundry and pumping at work worth it.
• Pumping sucks. Literally and figuratively. 
• Working forces me to shower every day again.
• Nighttime is the only time I can do things uninterrupted. 
• Working makes me use different parts of my brain and I get to interact with people (not always a good thing but it is what it is). As much as I loved being home with Olivia for three months, I could feel cabin fever setting in.
• Guilt is my new middle name. I feel guilty about everything now: not thinking about her all day long, getting frustrated at her when she won't fall asleep, wanting to work out, actually enjoying being back to work, the list is endless. I went from being all about me to all about baby, so I have to learn how to balance the two.